Something Lost

by Mstarot

~I lost my virginity to a woman I did not love.~ As I write that in my new journal I have to ask myself...why? Not why I did what I did with that woman. That answer I know. But why, two months after it happened, is that still the very first thing on my mind? I stare at the nearly blank page, a thousand thoughts filling my head and yet that one memory had to be on the top. "It's not like it's a completely pleasant memory," I mutter to myself then chuckle. That thought in itself is almost funny. What guy in his right mind would find the loss of his virginity to an older woman unpleasant. A bad memory? That night? Well...